M on: You or Me

Is this me trying too hard to be who I am not?

I read an interesting quote a couple of days ago “people tell us who they really are but we don’t listen because all we are interested in is who we want them to be.” 

As I ponder, the question arises; Is this roller coaster worth it?

Crying when I speak my mind because I hurt your feelings.

My words “cutting like a knife” because I have my own way of doing things.

You never seeming to understand me &  Me never seeming to understand you.

It seems the only the only thing we understand is that we love each other.

But is love enough;Or it is a curse rather than a gift?

And of course it belies the other question

Who isn’t listening; You or Me?

*I’ve been trying my hands at being in a serious relationship that I have to invest emotionally in and being who I am it’ been a roller-coaster of a ride the highs are worth it but the lows.. Maldito sea!!!

Ask for His daughter

So I spoke to kryptonite again and 4 years,later, she remains equally as lethal.
When I think back to how she stumbled into my life starting with that comment on my blog post and how the story has turned out, it's clearly the sort of story movies are made of. the sort that wins Oscars and can easily make an unknown actress win an a viewers choice award.

I think,about her and I think,about the past.
I think about her and I wonder about the future.
She is my past and she may be my future.
He knows and she is His daughter
So I guess if things do get to a head, I need to get straight with Him so I can ask for His daughter.

MY

M on: A Tale of 2 Cities

They say home is where the heart is but what happens when you don't have a heart? Does that imply you don't have a home?

Let me tell you a story. Call it a tale of 2 cities. 2 cities so distinct it is like comparing oil and water.

My affair with Londres started 2 years ago after a brief stint in Africa though you could say I relocated somewhat permanently in February. I found Londres rough around the edges but with pristine beauty. All you need is here but as with every human, doesn't offer all I want. The infrastructure is supportive, the people kind. the homes warm, the company wonderful, the relationships I've developed priceless and the opportunities timeless. When I consider living here for the rest of my life, most days I'm content but for a few issues mostly relating to family and friends complaining about the distance with londres and they prefer me moving closer to home. I would say I've managed the situation rather perfectly though I would say this beautiful city has given me more than enough to work with. Welcoming me with open arms, giving me residency and fast track to citizenship without considering my immigration status. When I stop to think about it, doubt anyone would find a city like londres

But then enter Paris....

Paris, the city of dreams. The city I've visited quite often when I was in Barcelona but never lived in. The city that offers promise but promises not yet tested. Not as close to home as my family would like but close enough for them to accept. Seemingly Paris offers all I could want and possibly need. Charming, simple, easy & full of energy. I can't help but wonder; If that is what I need or simply what i want. If Paris would be accepting of the immigrant in the way Londres has been. If Paris can possibly offer me Londres and more....

In a bid to to figure things out I planned a couple of trips to Paris but it seems I forgot you can't live in 2 cities and in a conversation with a friend in Brazil, it just so happened that my residency in london has been revoked and from the look of things permanently. Leaving me confused and grasping frantically ironically not for Paris but for home wherever that may be.

M
Of the Cerberus.

Blogoratti came through the cobwebs to say hello. Figured to do some spring cleaning to honour that.

MY On: Peeking At Beauty

PEEKING AT BEAUTY

The word has been overused
To the point that it is overlooked
And it in itself is not beautiful
For beauty is unpredictable
It is unconventional and illusive

Beauty is surprising.
It sneaks upon you,
It shocks and shakes you.
It captures your words,
Your breath,
Your soul and your mind.

It awakens something deep in the belly.
A something unnamed.
Between shame and liberation,
Between pride and fear,
Between sin and innocence,
Beauty is not what you are,
It is what you make me feel.
© Savannah S

Location    Tibidabo Mountain, Spain
Size (WxH)    16.2 x 10.6

O on: Super Sunday.

It's on! he says as he closes the case and carries upstairs. The case containing about 60 AA cartridges and 2 brand new automatic shotguns.
Dinner tomorrow with her friend. I'll hook it up. 

The day started with:
.Church,
..Disappointment with not being able to hit the water.
...Cuddling SL (next post)
....The noisier neighbors finally having something to be noisy for.
.....Japanese whisky
......South african wine
.......And the prospect of dinner with "texas"
........And it's only 8pm

O On: Mr Aramis Speaks

I try to be all about style and Finesse and as such spend a lot of time on men's grooming tips. Neil Cafferty from white collar remains an inspiration and so does George Clooney and now Mr. Aramis. all esteemed arbiters of Taste, men about town and etiquette and style gurus. Over the next couple of posts, i'll be sharing some tips I've gleaned from the triumvirate of men that put the G in GQ.

Dressing for this Christmas Season- Mr Aramis

When it comes to dressing for Christmas parties, I always steer towards timeless elegance, rather than fashion whimsy. For black-tie events, turn to royalty and old-school Hollywood to see how it should be done with real panache – which means black bow ties, not primary-hued or novelty ones.

In recent years, the single-breasted tuxedo has been in vogue, elongating the body and creating the illusion of a slimmer waist, but this season the likes of Brad Pitt and Mad Men actor Jon Hamm are leading the movement back to a more classical double-breasted dinner jacket. Choose black or midnight blue wool with lapels in grosgrain or barathea – I always feel velvet or satin look a bit ‘Del Boy’. Silk cummerbunds provide a sophisticated alternative to a waistcoat, but can serve to emphasise a – how shall I say it? – more rounded middle, so wear with care.

When it comes to selecting a dress shirt, I prefer a simple style, without frills or excess decoration, just a plain turn-back cuff with some smart cuff links. Personally, I like a cotton pique ‘bib’, but fine pleats can look elegant – and keep wing collars for tailcoats. Traditionally, patent shoes are worn with formal black tie, but the rules are relaxing and highly polished black Oxfords are now acceptable. A dash of Aramis adds the finishing touch.

Till Later

O